The past kicked me in the ass

Lets take a trip back to May of 2002. I made one of the most important decisions of my life. I ended the most toxic relationship I have ever had. To put it nicely he took all my money and put it up his nose. That was the final nail in the coffin. I probably should have ended it sooner but I was young and didn’t know any better. I put up with a lot of crap that I probably shouldn’t have. It’s taken me a long time to get over all the things that happened between he and I. As a matter of fact I’m still not over everything but I’m working on that. The reason I bring this up is because I saw him yesterday. I was sitting with some friends at Diedrichs having an iced tea when he walked by. I’ve often wondered what I would do if I saw him again. Apparently my eyes get real big and all the color drains from my face. What I really wanted to do was tell him that I thought his sunglasses went well with his coke habit and then tell him to keep walking. It’s surprising to me that he is still alive. I guess I still harbor a lot of resentment towards him. I have come a long way in the last 4 years but I know that I have to deal with my past in order to have a livable future. It’s just so fucking hard.

(P.S. He REALLY looked like shit)